Some times you seems selfish, you see others in need but you choose to ignore it. You choose to avoid speaking that person just so you're day won't be tainted. How can you make a conscious decisions to let someone suffer, when you know that you can make them feel better. Is it because you are selfish, self-centered and without a heart. Is it because you are a bad person and have no morals or compassion. How can you be without those things, are you not human?
Ignoring someone else's pain pain can be done for the very same reason, that yes I am human. One of our most basic and primal instinct is self-preservation. I chose to ignore you so that I may preserve the small precious piece of happiness or peace that I experienced that day. You call me heartless and selfish, but tell me have you looked in the mirror? Yes, I admit it, I saw your pain, I saw you weeping and crying and DAMN IT, I saw you bleed too. I saw that yes I may be of some help but I choose to look the other way.
You heartless cold bitch. I thought you were my friend. I thought you cared about me. What kind of friend sees their friend in pain, hurt and just leave them there. You didn't even ask if I was ok, you didn't even help me up. You claim that you love me but I think in truth you must hate me and you were only pretending to care before. But now you are not able to do that forever; a person's true colour always shows in the end. And what do you mean by have you looked in the mirror, tell me what's that supposed to mean?
It means that this once, I was horrible and yes what I did was dreadful, there is no excuse for it. If this is my behaviour then I don't deserve any friends at all. Because I only care about myself and no one else, that makes me truly no one's friend. Right now your talking to me, I should see that you are hurt, that you are sad, lonely and in pain. But I choose to ignore it and see what I want to see and talk about, the only thing I want to talk about and that is me, for I think my problems and my life are more important that yours. As your problems are not mine then they most be meaningless, not worth acknowledging. I am not the one feeling the pain you are, so I don't care.
You admit it, you are a selfish bitch and you don't deserve to be my friend. I guess this is good bye and the end.
Yes, it is the end of me holding up the mirror to your face. For the things I just said to you are things that you say to me everyday day, without words. Now I am going to speak with my own tongue and give you my thoughts. How dare you stand before me and say that I am an awful friend. That day that your feelings got hurt. I decided to pretend to be you. I reacted to the situation as you would. I comforted you as you have comforted me, not at all. You can how could I have not seen your pain, answer me this, how could you not have seen mine. Every time you have a problem you come to me and I listen and I cared and I gave you a shoulder to lean on for support. When you sacrifice so much joy for someone you expect to get the same in return...
BUT.....
SHUT UP.... I am speaking now and finally. I ask you how you are doing and you don't ask me in return. You don't see that to smile is unusually, almost a foreign concept to me. All those things you said to me, I am now saying them to you. How could you not see and what kind of friend are you? You come and you release your pain but I cannot do the same, I help you carry your burdens. But I am left to bare mine alone. And once I left you and you question all the other times I helped you. All those awful names you just called me and those ones I called myself when I was being your mirror. These are the way you are and you don't deserve me. So I will take your advise, the only true one you ever gave me. We are no longer friends Bitch, this is the end. Selfishness wasn't so black and white now, was it?
