Love you to Death

She stands in the corner shaking with anticipation 
She takes another minute to digest the man laying on the bed
She takes a deep breathe, then exhales slowly to calm her nerves
She then clenches her fists as if to keep hold of her resolve
After she takes her first step forward the others came with ease
The closer she drew to the bed, the more she is taken aback by him
She is finding it more and more difficult to believe what is about to take place
Finally she's on the bed, straddling her lover; there is no turning back now
He looks up at her with shock and wonder plainly displayed in his eyes
Those eyes, long lashes that would make any woman jealous
Light brown that looks golden , so intense in their gaze 
When those eyes rests on her, she feels like there is no one else in the world
Her eyes moves to his lips and she shivered  recollection of what they've done to her
She leans down and kiss him deeply and passionately
He makes to move his hands towards her body but can't
He then sees that his hands are tied to the bed posts
She smiles seductively down at him as sh e runs her hand over his bare chest
She feels him tremble under her touch, she feels emboldened
Since he can't touch her, she decided to sate his desire
She lays on top of him, pressing herself against his body 
With her head to his chest, she can hear his heart pounding wildly
She moves up to whisper, sweetly in his ear, "Do you like how this feels?"
As she takes hold of his man hood stroking him gently
There was no need for him to reply, his body said it all
She grew tired of the foreplay and was ready to give to her desire
"Lay back and relax baby, I am going to give you what you deserve"
As the hard instrument slid slowly inside, they gasped in unison
She saw his eyes widen with shock from the feel of it
She took a moment to savour the feel of it inside as deep as it could go
Excited by the sensation, she began to work it in and out
They moaned, groaned and screamed together
She screamed " I love you so much" to him
He could scream no more, he just stared up at her
She continued, increasing her pace her breathing became ragged from her effort
She kept going until she was weak and collapsed on him from exhaustion
She layed there, trying to catch her breath, drenched in hot fluids
She was completely spent but buzzing with delight
Because her lover was dead and the instrument was a knife
She used it to stab him 47 times, thus ending his life

Exsanguination

Drip, drop of blood splattered the floor

Splish, splash here comes some more

It hurts so much but i can't stop

I must go deeper

My heart's pounding, the pace quickens

It's been too long since its been this active 

The pulsing rushes oxygen to my head

Pushing the ever present fog away

My eyes widen, everything looks clearer now

Colours are brighter and each touch more intense

Everything seems so alive, even as the flow increases

I raise my head to the sky and inhale deeply

The intake of breathe is so sweet

I lift my right hand to my face to caress it gently

Exploring and gaining a new perception

Touch my lips and marvel at how soft and supple they are

Amazed that they aren't desired by all

Finally I let my hand fall back to my side 

on the way down it trailed over my body

Feeling the warmth, the heat

Oh the breath-taking passions it could provide

Now I look down at my chest 

Caught up in the rhythm of the slow rise and fall of my bosom 

I look around; at myself and shed a tear

For in this moment I am so filled with the beauty of life

My breathing gets more shallow and my heart beat more rapid

Just then I close my eyes to savour this blissful high

As I lay here, left wrist slit and waiting to die.

Expression

I want to be bursting out with joy
I want every emotion to be physically manifested
The restrictions on my actions to be removed
To be without judgments on my point of view
Free from the incessant scrutiny 
Oh how astounding it would be to return to a primal state of being
Be unbound by the laws and expectations of society
To be as free as a leaf in the wind
As wild as a babbling brook
Or as gay as a nightingale 
To appreciate life from a humming bird's perspective 
Every moment vivid and vital because they are few
Fear embraced and quickly overcome
For what is there to be feared when the end is near
To taste love and suckle from its teats
Dive into it without reservation 
Fully accepting of the searing pain in your heart
The smoldering of your soul
Such intense desire that drives you to the edge of insanity
Passion that pushes you over
Admiration that makes you calmer
Trust to keep you sober
Faith that there will be no other
Hope that it will last forever 

Written: 20th December, 2012
By Jaydon N. Foster