Veiled

I spend my days hiding the window to my soul

Keep it hidden and pretend it is whole

Put on an act for those around

Refuse to let them see me frown

Cant let them see the shame of loneliness or the crippling pain

Put up pretty walls so I'll never get hurt again

I smile and pretend that I'm having fun

Live it up not for me but for everyone

Then I retreat to my emotional cage

No longer having to be tough or brave

Pacing and lurking like a tiger pent up, full of rage

Cant see straight, cant think past the flame

Damn I am burning alive in my own space

Mouth open wide, cant you hear me scream

Your silence cuts like a knife, don't you see me bleed

I stand before you, open, naked and raw

This is who I am, not the woman you think you saw

Scared of the fact that I'm willing, wanting to let you in

Let down my walls, begin to trust again

I don't know if I can deal though

But I'm finding hard to let you go

Written January, 25th, 2011

By Shenel Christian and Jaydon N. Foster